Sleepy ku nyamu..

Nw kaja mlm.. 1st night n still alone g.. huh.. ngantok th g...

PGI..
Wal bangun tdi.. attended meeting lam kul 10am.. p wal ku dtg k opis kira2 lam kul 9 am dah smpai... well kirakn ukan plg ku kn smangat ne dtg ah.. kaja sorg th g mlmnya...

TGHARI,
Smpai umah lam kul 12pm labih.. smpai umah rehat2 jap.. then lam kul 3pm labih.. jln ma Adiku laki2 bali Grogery.. tarusku bali penyungkaian ku.. sal mum n adi2 ku pat urg mlagau sungkai... Nasib jua ku tbangun tdi tym sungkai.. biasanya aku n main bbangunkan.. P sukur tbangun jua.. Alarm dri Hp..

Hmmm.. tdi smpat c8 ma Bro J.. tot kan c8 sal kmarin.. coz kmarin ku da nmpak ia area Qlap.. he was taking a pictures with his friends.. Well, jdi kmarahan nya plg lah.. ntah la.. to be honest sad ku plg sal nya mcm dulu ku da knalan then ia knal ma Abg.. since ia knal Abg.. ku makin renggang la sama ia.. OK ku admit salah ku sal ku nda mo jmpa sapa2.. my b not the right time.. not enough confident.. lain la cam Abg.. jmpa sapa2 saja.... well im different.. ku bkn over expose.. ku limit diriku sndiri... Well Bro J... i just hope bro understand.. who im... im complicate kindda of friend.. n i wont blame Bro.. lau bro nda kan be a friend of mine g.. P yg pnting.. I'll still respect sapa2 sja yg sudi bkwan n bknalan ma aku slagi ia anggapa ku kwn, slagi not overlimit, slagi ku nda kna jahat2i... Sal i hv my own prinsip... lau aku.. aku lebih prefer, bknalan without seeing each other dulu.. Nya urg knal hati budi masing2 dulu... n thats what i do...

1020pm,
16 Sept 2008..
Tue..

Tiring day at Office..

Quite bz tdi d office.. lain g maintenance, then call g, then meeting, buat police report tdi.. pyah jua kaja sorg ne.. sal kaja untuk 2 org tpaksa sorg yg handel.. nasib jua ku pnyabar..:P hahha.. well mbuat kn bz tdi tu mbaut report la, mcm rushing jua tdi tu salnya.. tpaksa ready kan report b4 polis dtg ambil... so last2 slasai tu nyaman jua ati.. the ptg tu buat report g sal bos suruh buat minit meeting.. labih 5 x tdi keep amend report atu.. balik bos tdi aman rasanya..

Sungkai, i had, Butter Egg Prawn tdi (the taste.. hmm okay la..) then Chix brest salad with Teh o.. Spend utk sja $8 plus.. p i dun mind plg spend salnya ku ne berangin kan mkn.. sngaja ku oder extra..

This must be funny for some ppl.. While i was driving back home, Blaing mata ku.. HMMmm.. sal ndangar lagu.. lawa la lagu tu kjiwa ku ndangar.. Ku rasa ndangar atu mbuat ku hepi at the same time bkumpul tia aing mata tu d mata.. Yup, i was thinking sal my self.. My life... thats what i keep thinking.. so far in my life i never feel what real happiness like.. Yup i admit n its true.. Idup ku ne complicated.. Once i love that person i wont betrayed the relationship, kira aku ne jenis setia yg satu la... Hmm , tapi kan the Question?? Did that person appreciate what i have given and treat.. Yup it a Big Question for me, coz even with relationship at the moment i still could not feel the happiness..

Ntah la, nda jua ku dpt slahkan urg lain jua, apa nya urg Cermin diri sendiri dulu.. Means.. aku kena sadar jua ulah ku.. Sapa tau kan.. ppl nda suka my behaviour.. tambahan g aku ne Pndiam n Pmalu urgnya.. PPL mostly said kan urg pndiam ne kana ucap Ambung... Yup i frequently heard that...

Well, about my tears tdi tu.. i dont thing anybody would understand, ofcourse my self.. Lain la urg tu dpt mbaca minda urg lain.. (Hahaah, ada kah tu...) Dont thing so...

Hmmmm, tomorrow will be another working boring day for me sal im still working alone.. Tomorrow will be my 2nd AM Shyf.. Oh Damm im so so sooooo lonely...

0950pm,
12 Sept 2008,
Friday..

Sahur Menu

This is what i had for my sahur for the pass 3 days of my night shift... a combination of Cereal, Oat, Kismis n Low fat fresh milk in a cup..

Tpi kalau d umah lain sikit menu, sal kna masakkan.. usually mkn nasi la..

My last syf kaja mlm ne ku bdangan.. kwn ku tdo d opis.. sian ku jua sal ia kaja pagi tarus... balik kaja tym mlm kmarin..

0614am,
10th Sept 2008.
...

I woke up tdi lam kul 7 pm labih.. mun nda Abg MC nda th ku tbangun x tu.. ku rasa baru th ku pnah ne, balik kaja syf pagi tdo pgi n bangun seahir cmani... Lalah banar th ku tu.. pa nda tym kaja mlm 3 ari tu langsung ku nda btdo, bjaga bnar la.. partner ku kaja ne pyah sikit pnting kn diri... nyaman2 tu smpai bkuruh2.. diri smpai merah2 mata bjaga.. buing bnar ada partner kaja caatu... yg cali nya sungguh nya caatu ia ne th yg paling bos suka... npa kh ya.. Anak Amasa th jua banar... huh.. then offday sok ne kna suruh dtg kaja g ada Meeting... BUING Banar....

Cputri...
Myb sok ku mbersihkan aing akrium nya.. kabaut banar udah buing kn mliat... nda kan tliat bah ikan2 nya..

1125pm,
14hb Aug 2008..
...

Working Sunday... Huhhhh..

Today im working morning shift at Sunday.. Well nothing much going on n just our routine daily task.. hopefully smua nya bjalan ngan lancar.. yg bari mls nya ganya lau kana ambush salnya bos ne kdg2 ngajut ia dtg, iath bahaya tu mun nda prasan n da yg ttdo.. luckly, ku jrg2 tdo tym kaja...

Ulser d mulut ku is getting baik, Alhamdulillah dpt jua lancarnya bckp2 n makn minum.. p lum g 100% baik la sal da masi rasa sakit.. kira myb 95% g kan baik.. o lau Mkn n Minum hv to slowly..

D mlm tu pas balik kaja BB da msg minta aga balik kaja lam kul 10pm.. mls pls rasanya kan ngaga sal nya balik kaja tu pun dah ku ngalih n ngantok.. so hv to la sapa th g kan d harapkannya slain abgnya sendiri.. mlm minggu Gdg mlm tu rmai masi urg, jln jam plg leh nya... odw kan balik tu da th jua traffic jam dekat ngan Hua Ho BNT.. stuck jua keta lehnya.. Sian ja ku banarnya c BB ne, odw ya balik tu tdo ya, nmpak ia kengalihan ah.. p tpksa jua ia tu,sal d suruh skulah nda ia mo, kata kan nyambung blajar private la.. cari kaja la.. p bkaja pun skajap2 nda pandai lama.. hangat2 tahi ayam.. ku mo ia bdikari sendiri.. mcm aku jua dulu2.. cmana susah ku cari kaja, dgn kaja ku yg trok, balik ahr.. nda plg sapa2 yg tau u kngalihan diri.. syg banar la bb ne, banyak bedulur dari Awg n Ayg.. p ia nda pandai mbalasi myb dgn blajar rajin2 kah.. mo ani d balikn, d bayarkan... syg la.. ku mo adi2 ku nda jdi mcm aku, ku mo dorg blajar stinggi2 nya yg tmampu.. krg ne mun nada plajaran payah...

Sok??? HMMMMM..
Bro Aliff kan bawa jumpa ku ma Abg Arie..
Rasa2nya nda plg ku mo, pyah cikit ku ni kan bwa jumpa urg..
1. Kurang Confident,
2. Ku mudah nda tantu rasa mun baru2an jumpa,
3. ku takut urg kburingan kan diri..

Ntah la mudah2an sok smuanya oka2 ja g pun sian jua ku bro Aliff tu mcm desperate kan bjumpa sal janya ia kburingan tu nnti ri isnin ah.. nda pa la bwa jmpa ja.. Insyallah..

Sunday..
1001am..
13 July 2008..
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Stressful at Work..

Nowadays, i dont really go out for lunch.. for me buying food or odering food from outside is enough.. Not nw.. kindda really stressful every minutes staying at the office.. 1 way to release my sressfullness is just going out.. went out with mu 'Abg'.. thanks Abg .. syg slalu...
We went lunch at 1 of the restaurat at SRP.. nt sure pa nama kadainya.. jnji kadai Lingka la.. Tsliur kan mkn Mee Goreng Daging..
Afta that, before balik ku bali some Breads utk kan d mkn d opis tym ptg.. Sinngah jua d kadai ikan d sana, Abg bali patition utk akrium nya.. tym d sana pekerja sna aada bagi mkn Arwana Red Tail bgi mkn, katak.. mun basar ikan tu bis dh kana Ngaap dh tu,..
Hehe pic of me posin d opis.. hahah.. kdapatan tia bebintilan jerawat jeragat.. :) n pic of my favourite "mushroom quiche'

1001pm,
02 July 2008