Working OT.. Huhhhh

Update my binatang peliharaan...
Ikan Belida (Bintik) n Round Body Flower Horn on process membesar.. ehheh..
The Hamsters.. Huhh.. mkin bnyak anak pinak nya.. nda tau kn jual... nda ttau kn jual d mana..
Lau ada urg kn bali insyallah kn ku juali murah...

Siang tdi.. Ku spatutnya OFF, hv to bkaja.. Huhhh.. atu kn nyaman dh tdo ku x tau Tuan ada sms.. suruh dtg kaja.. so tpksa la.. so kira another 4 hari g kaja pgi.. n there is NO offday utuk ku.. Huhhh...

Appointment ku d RIP.. posponed g.. sal Dr yg biasa merawat aku.. Cuti.. ku kana suruh call g 4 July.. As usual...

STEP BACK....

Yea.. i have decided to step-back atau mengundur diri.. Ku minta maaf rah nya skira nya ada slah silap ku yg masi d kenang nya.. minta halal kn mkn minum ku rah nya.. i noe im not the best person to be with... p im trying my best jua kn buatkn ia gembira.. Huhh.. i noe i shouldnt mentioned g pkara2 lapas.. pyah jua kn d lupa kn ah knanagan2 catu tu.. bagi ku knangan ku bsama ia tu suatu knanganan manis dan pkara yg payah ku kn lupakn.. Tru jua kata urg.. Cinta ptama tu payah kn d lupakan.. well atu la perasaan ku smpai krg ani.. I noe pyah urg kn undersatand kn aku ni.. i guess aku ne nda pndai expresskn feeling ku.. Alhamdlillah.. pas msg tdi tu.. n hope kami nada pmusuhan ssama sendiri.. ku pun nda ada prasaan banci kh rah nya.. cuma persaan ku rah nya sebaliknya.. Still... which i cannot withstand... smakin ku pikir2 kn smakin ku mcm masi bharap supaya dpt bsma2 ia.. which this thing wont happen rah ku lagi...

Honestly.. ku brasa cemburu la rah nya... ia mrasa kn diri gembira dgn situasinya masa ne.. Dpt bsama dgn urg yg banar2 d syginya.. yeaa.. just teremind ku dgn kata2nya... "atu HAK ku, atu HAK mu..." this words really giving impact rah diri ku la.. ia mbagi mkna berbaza dlm diri ku.. not sure sapa2 im mean urg terdekat sama aku dpt faham..

As for nw i have to get use live mcm dulu2... live sebelum ku knal ia.. live in SOLO'ing... Nway ku banar2 bterima kasih la rah nya.. being dgn ia.. ku dpt mrasa "kbahgiaan"... really thankful on those past experiance... Doa n harapakn ku rah nya, smuga ia sntiasa gembira2 slalu dsamping org yg d sayangi...

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Morning tdi..,

Balik kaja breakfast sama2 dgn kwn ku.. ia baru balik dri overC.. segan ku banarnya kn jumpa ia ne.. coz ku tau ku ne nda seberapa.. N im still trying to overcome my lack of confidence... Nway thanks alot Bui.. He gave me.. ole2 dari sana.. 2 shirts.. really2 appreciate that...

old colleauge dropin by... Missing sum1..

Ku d bangunkn uleh adi ku tdi.. Cali jua bgiku. At first ku fikirkn, mimpi ja.. Panya bndr ada kna ktok pintu bilik ku.. Bgun ja,(without liat jam) trus adiku gto "kwn bang didi dtg, yg pkai kca mata'' kta adiku..

Khairanan ku la jrg kwn2 ku ada dtg k umh ne.. Ukn pa mcm malu ku jua la.. X liat panya c Saiful.. Ia ne kwn ku kaja, p ia resign sal ada bisnis familinya..ceta2 la sikit2 ja tdi. Rindu ku bnr kn ia ne. Ku rindukn tym bkaja sma ia. Psal ia la kwn kaja yg dpt ku harapkn, komited kaja.. Yg pnting ia nda pnah main2 bkaja.. Bnyk2 partner ku bkaja. Ku pling enjoy n selesa kaja sma ia. Kira matang la pikiranya.. Lau yg lain 2 nda brapa la. Sori guys, no offended but its d truth.. Ada few la sja yg ok..

"pul, ku doakn bisnis mu maju. Amin"

Tym adiku gto yg kwn ku dtg, tlintas straight d fikiranku. Nada lain yg dtg k umh slain 'yg dulu' tu. Tpi ia trus ngtok d bilik ku.. Famili ku ok cma2.. Bnci ku mun tfikir bnda2 cmatu. Eventhough ianya knangan2 manis bgiku. Bkn apa.. I guess aku msi g mrindui :( cma yg nda ku suka.. Ku slalu mharap... A2 nda ku suka. Sdngkn ia bpunya dh.. N ia dh bhagia dgn pilihanya.. I m so damn missing to hug ia.. Huhhh...

"d, ko msti lupakn ia, lupakn ia.. Jauhkn diri mu dri ia.. If not ko akan masi meharapkn dri ia, which is yg ko nda bkal dpt blek.." :'( p da truth knangan manis memang susah hndak d lupakn. Tambhan ia a2 first pngalaman mu. First love, first ku mrasakan kasih syg dri sum1.. All those memories stil fresh d jiwa ku.. Rasa mcm bru kmarin nda sma2.. I gues lagu frm Maria 'SESAAT KAU HADIR' lagu pnuh makna bgi ku.. Huhhhh :'(

:'( im so sori treating ia so differently nowadays.. Deep in my heart, ia nda pnh ilang d jiwa ku.. Ingin tersangat jiwa ani kn takul ia, walau sesaat.. Tpi it wont happen.. It wont.. Wont happen.. Im sure 'ia' surely nda paham pa yg ku rasa..

Letting the memories flying by the wind...

Gelang Kokka ku...

Gelang tangan Kokka. I bought it tdi, odw kn kaja singgah d Batu satu, it cost me $40.
This Gelang was given by fren of mine, my Gurl fren.. nda silap ku it either ujung taun 2007 or 2008 ia bagi aku. Actually im not that into like sumone yg suka pakai brg2 accessori.. but ever since ri tu.. ku started pkai.. n jua.. every time ku kuar umah pasti ku pakai.. hairan ku jua.. its quite meaningful la pemberian "gurl fren" ne.. eventhough ku nda sama2 ia.. p ku masi hargai la.. bagi ku ia nya penuh makna..

Apa ne nah..?? This actually.. Kompas Qiblat.. iath list benda kn ku bali ne dah terima...Alhamdulillah tecapai jua ahirnya.. at leat dpt jua ku proper qiblat when ever im solat at other place...

Tpi yg buat ku rungsing.. Rah manual pper nya tu.. mentioned bgi negara BRUNEI, arah Qiblat adalah 90', tpi ku cek at http://www.qiblalocator.com/, bgi BRUNEI adalah 290.01'N... ani yg ku rungsing.. Insyallah nnti ku tanya kn urg yg pakar... Hahhah.. my Gelang becomes 2... sama kh usulnya.. liat la nnti.. as for nw ku kn pakai dua2 dulu..

Settlekn stuff

Assalamualikum...

Just had my breakfast.. today menu.. Scramble eggs wif hot Tea... Sukur alhamdulillah.. In a short while.. kan off settlekan stuffs.. hopefully i can settlekan smua.. i wish... dh settle nyaman ati.. tdo pun enak.. Hhahha.. au mengkali jua tu mun d umah nda ingar...mun lakap lagur.. gundah gulana th ku tu as usual...

Bru balik kaja pgi ne.. n baru 1st night.. 3 days more to go.. yea i worked OT.. this week i dont have off.. Baru ya.. kabal ah..

Smpai umah..
Resting.... N seleeeeppppp..XZzzzZ

Funeral (touching commercial ad)

Im so touched watching this..
Hw i wish....
I can accept those pple who can accept the way i am..
Accept the 'imperfection' in me...

:(

"LITTLE IMPERFECTION,
THAT MAKE THEM PERFECT"

Just an ORDINARY day

Time 1007pm nw...
Bru bis mkn tdi... Tired jua balik kaja tu..
Nothing much happens ri ne... kaja at office mcm biasa.. da tym bz ada jua relek2 nya tu,
Ku hairan.. Ku kept terfikirkn sum1 ne... i guess that is rindu pakah p ku cuba kawal diri n,
cuba jua mengelak la pikirkn bnda2 atu.. lau makin ku fikir2 pun aku jua yg merana..
Feeling ku, pa yg ku pikirkn ukan nya urg faham... Well apa2 pun ku doakn 'urg' atu.. sntiasa,
gembira slalu la.. Ku pasti jua.. Masa ne ia lebih bhagia, hmmm.. tkanang ku plg tym ku,
sama 'ia' tu.. mcm cmana skalipun keinginan ku ku buat ia gembira.. mbwa ia ktmpat2 bisai kah..
ku rasa ku nda mmpu buat 'ia' gembira dgn apa yg ku harapkn.. nth la.. pa nya urg,
cramin dulu diri tu.. p alhamdulillah.. ku sedar jua diri ku sapa.. huhhh, nth ler...

This few days.. ku hairan dgn diri ku.. tym mlm ja.. tdu ku teramat la kusut, gundah gulana.. malar g tbangun2.. mcm d mlm tu.. atu kn kipas ku set no 2.. lau hari2 biasa atu kira sajukk dh tu bgi ku.. p somehow.. ku tdo bpaluh.. really bepaluh la.. hairan jua.. nth ler perhaps banadn nda berapa selesa x.. insyallh.. mudahan hari2 mendatang ne.. ku dpt tdu dgn nyaman n selesa.. hahah.. i wish.. ermmm.. eya.. i wish lau dpt kn psang Air cond jua.. kdg2 tu nyaman jua tdo ku.. mcm d opis.. baru tlalap mata skajap.. udah th ku kuruh (nya kwn ku la..).. tpi nth la ah.. pyah kn psang.. karan nda tbala d umah nini ku ne..

Sakit ku... Lum g 100% baik.. at the moment.. last appointment ku tu.. n nw alhamdulillah.. karing dh kuris tu.. next appointment will be 29hb june.. lupa ku pa schedule kaja ku.. nnti th cek..

Funny PICTURES

Unwell..

Still got running nose@flu..

Tdi ptg wnt to Tasek Lama... Jog sana.. tdi ramai jua la urg d sana.. luckly i can find near paking.. pas bis jog.. singgah jap d Kianggeh.. paking siring jln ja..

Huhh.. tdi tu i was terkenangkn sum1.. my first love.. true jua ckp urg pyah kn lupakn cinta ptama tu ah.. like tdi tu.. terkenang ku.. we used to lepaking.. n had our dinner d sana... eat Satay n Mee Goreng...

Truly ku bnr kn rindu ia.. p i cant.. sal ku tau ku siapa..

:(

AchoooOOo I got FLU...

Still sneezing today... since kmarin dh.. so kira 2 hari dah.. last night tu.. barat jua la kpala, rasa2 ku damam th ku tu..

Yesterday was my OFFday... d umah ja.. nothing much kn d buat.. nothing intresting happens jua..

RIP Appointment...

Today..
I have attended my RIP appointment.. arrived there b4 9am.. wal ku bngun n mandi apa. Tym mandi pagi ja, ku noticed somthing unusual timbul pat part badan ku.. huhhhhh..:( quite sad jua ku.. lum g abis baik yg "ANI" timbul g yg baru.. "Benda" tu bsar nya mcm biji kacang n tumbuh dekat dengan "Sakit" ku tu.. so jelas la bungkulnya (Bijinya) d pigang nda plg sakit.. smpai sja.. nunggu jua la.. myb nda silap ku 30 mins jua la..

"Sakit" ku lama tu.. 6 x shoots la.. quite painful jua.. n the Dr do it twice shoots on every "Sakit" tu.. Ok pasal "Benda" tu... ku tnya kn rah Dr tu.. suruh nya ku refer pat nearby clinic@hospital.. so since pat ku tinggal d SKG.. so suruh nya ku pegi rah Klinik SKG..

P kan pagi sana not at this time la.. "Sakit" ku tu ne membengkak.. n swelling.. sok stat tia kuar nanah ne.. so biasanya withing 1 week... it will started to mengering... so my be at that time mun "Benda" tu masi ada.. so baru ku pegi Klinik la.. Well tdi Dr tu adviced ku jgn tangguhkan plg... p payah jua rasaku.. Dr tu ckp.. "Benda" tu.. somthing d panggilnya."Lump".. ia tjdi sal blood vessels tu bkumpul.. kira mcm luka..

Balik ja d umah.. bwa mkn tarus ku tdo.. bgun2 ku tdi roughly lam kul 2pm plus.. bgun2 ja.. cek HP.. got 1 mc from some1 yg ku rindui.. kn MC balik, krdt low...

Huhhhh...
AKU MAU SEMBUH...
:(

1st Ornamental Fish Exhibition and Pet show 2009

Just arrived home...

Went to seri Qlap mall tdi.. liat "1st Ornamental Fish Ehibition & Fish Show 2009'', at first i tot it was free panya bbayar.. they charged $10 per head.. im wif my twins bro n sis tdi.. Ada 2 section covered with board tdi...

1st we entered the 1st section.. d dalam nya bmcm2 ikan.. tmasuk.. Ikan Koi (imported dri Jepun), Gold Fish, Fighting Fish, Anak Buaya (air masin) and Ikan Pelaga Brunei...

While the 2nd section tu mostly Reptiles.. they have many types of Snakes, Persian cats, spiders.. tpi d dlm tu nda dpt ambil gmbar.. mun mo ambil gmbar tpksa kna charge.. mcm taking photo wif ular basar... $18 kh nda ku silap... lawa2 jua la ular2 nya.. hehhe.. mun ada budget mo jua ku kn pelihara seikung.. Boa snake..heheh.. cute sulnya..

Pgi tdi..

Abang ku ngantar anak nya sama amah nya stay d sini tdi... so mama jua njaga jua la.. sian plg ku anak nya tu sal nda slesa tdo.. nda beekon.. by ptg lam kul 6pm labih tdi baru dorg balik..

Yesterday..

Ahr balik kaja.. spatutnya balik kul 8pm.. p sal ada kaja d TTG. so smpai umah lam kul 11pm labih.. quite tired la jua..

Her morning elegance

School holiday...

This is my 4th days working.. kindda lazy jua bngun tdi.. woke up..ahr la.. so smpai opis pun a bit ahir.. mcm 5 minutes late je.. dun wanna too late jua smapi opis..sian jua kwn2 ku kn balik2... krg ahr g dorg nunggu... p alhamdulillah, nasib jua the 4th days ne ari minggu.. less buzy n stress less la jua..

Diri ku... kindda quite la lately.. i mean.. obviously nothing intresting la going on.. hari2 ku.. biasa2 ja.. Off day at home ja.. lau kn jln2 tu mls jua asanya.. 1st mesti ku tfikir kn jln ma siapa... mls jua kn ngcw2 sapa2.. so solo'ing ja la.. 2ndly, budget... yup.. tight budget nowadays.. p alhamdulillah jua.. dpt jua survive jua till next gaji kuar..

Sok my off day.. paln kn JOG... not sure where... p kn exercise la.. sja kn kuar kn paluh.. so come back kaja less stress la..

Just need sum1 jua kdg.. ialah... mcm dulu2... jln2 ada urg teman kn.. dpt share story.. sad o hepi story.. yea dats wat i want.. so my mr lonileness ne cud ran away dari diri ku.. hehhe.. P kan feel envy jua ku.. liat pple coupling.. nth la.. may be balum masa g x.. so i jush hv to wait n bsar jua.. nya urg mun dah jodoh nda kn lari kmana jua.. nda ja..

School holiday just started, yesterday last day scholling bagi students n teachers.. wahhhh.. siuk x ah dpt cuti.. i was planning kn cuti jua... i hv applied cuti 22hb till 28 hb June ani.. tpi... have to posponed once again... sal my colleauge tpksa emergency leave dari 9hb June till nda tau smpai bila.. so ku mgalah la.. insyallah mun nda pa2 ku kn ambil by July n August ngkali.. hopefully.. p kn, Lau kn cuti kn bhapa2 jua ku.. abis d umah jua x ganya.. lainla mcm dulu.. da sum1 kn d bawa jln2.. Huhhh.. nth la..

Kisah MSN

U guys gonna like it.. thumbs up to whom yg mbuat ani.. mke my day smile..:)

Appointment cancelled...

Went to RIP tdi.. ri tu appointment 06 hb June kana pospone.. kna gto nada Dr nya tu.. but then tdi.. pegi sana alasan nya ubat abis... huh.. bri mls banar.. bari kn nyumpah ada jua.. apa inda.. dari kul 9am, the 10 am then kul 11am plus... dah smpai sana.. nunggu2 g.. last2 kana panggil kna gto ubat tu abis... feel down jua ku ulihnya.. pa nda... tinggi smangat ku kn beubat, supaya capat baik.. mun cmni gaya nya.. batah ku kn baik ne... SSSSSssssOOOoooo mengecewakan banar...

Next appointment will be on 16hb Jun, hope dis this no more pospone....

Huhhhh..:(

No off day

Sok kaja murning... huhh.. no Off day.. tired eh.. baru jua pgi tdi bali kaja.. sok g kaja pgi so 4 days working in a row..

Fish akrium....

Taken today.. o9/o6/o9....

Keta Garit

Feel sad...:(

Bru tdi anak tghnya ku.. Dtg meminta maaf rah mamaku.. ia minta maaf sal ia garitkn keta n menyumpah mama.. Astafirullah ala zim.. muda masi ia ne.. umo below 15 thn tpi dh berani mbaut bnda2 catu.. Tdi tu.. ku d dpur... kn mkn.. tdgar mama nasihati ia.. ia nangis2 la.. nth .. nda ku paham napa nda brapa suka kn kami ne... nda jua kmi ngcaw2 sapa2 d umah ne.. nth la czin ku bini2 tu ku doakn la mudahan th sadar... kami tingal seumah ne ukn kn bemasam2 mua o kn car kelaie.. feel simpati banar2 dgn mama.. huhhh..

Ptg td went to Tasik.. jog d sana.. buring jua lama nda do excersice ah... pas jog trus balik umah..

Baby rabbits

Baby rabbits tinggal 5 ikung.. seikung mata.. nya adi ku idung nya bdarah...
Was born on 24 Mei 2009...

Public Holiday events...

Anak2 Rabbits belongs to adi2ku.. smuanya 5 ikung... seikung tu tym ku ambil pic ani.. mama nyuci bdannya sal gugur pat lungkang... baik jua adi ku tnampak d lungkang.. alhamdulillah smuanya sehat2.. n bebulu dh.. I had lunch with cAbg tdi.. mkn yg Cungkil2 ah.. heheh.. ia tsliur, so danganka ia.. gpun lama dh nda mkn yg cungkil2.. Sukur alhamdulillah..

Afta dat ku bawa jln2 k pantai.. went to pantai Hutan Simpanan Berakas n Pantai Muara... Siuk jua la mliat sana.. nda plg kami turun.. just mliat2 ja...

Nway Thanks Bro...